why vampires make for good bfs

okay - as much as i am ashamed to admit it, I am reading the twilight series.. and i love edward cullen and as I was thinking about it, i thought i will write a short post on why vampires make good boy-friends :D

1) Vampires are breathtakingly beautiful, smell good and are fast and strong
2) Because they don't eat, they won't fart/belch/burp
3) They don't sleep, they'd rather watch you sleep, how cute and what devotion!
4) They drive incredibly fast and hence own fancy cars
5) They follow you around because they care for your safety and protect your accidents - doesn't hurt right?
6) They are afraid they will hurt you, so they don't demand sex! (and that too only until marriage! if you are interested in remaining virgin that is, you have a choice!)
7) You can piggy back on them and they will fly through the forest and put you on top of a tree so you can get a view and feel the breeze.
8) They tend to be old (mentally, not physically) and hence very wise
9) They admire you and wish they were you since you get to die and they don't.
10) They jump in through the window after your parents sleep and keep company throughout the night

wow.. now you know why the women love the twilight series.. this is even better than the best fantasy out there :)

m

changes to the blog

hi - I have arrived at a compromise. blogspot has a way of inviting your readers, thus effectively blocking random checks on me! so I have sent an invitation to a few that I know have read my blog at some point in time or the other.. this is only to protect myself from strangers.. so please don't take offense!

m

half full..

i have this big fear.. and i think i have found an accurate way of describing this fear.. it was not clear to me earlier.. it is this.. i feel half full.. my life goes on, i am doing all the right things and meeting all the deadlines (most of them anyway) but still my life seems half full and my biggest fear is that i will die feeling this way.. i know what you are thinking - did i ever feel full at any other point in time? and the answer is yes.. i always used to.. in fact, this is a feeling that has only been growing over the last 2-3 years.. i feel like i can't be too happy, or too sad.. like i have attenuated - if you know what I mean.. and nothing moves me too much.. maybe its maturity.. if it is maturity, i hate being mature..

anyway, as the author of "unbearable lightness of being" says, you have only one life.. so there is no way of knowing what could have happened if ta-da-da-da-da.. i can't compare and contrast.. my decisions and actions are irrevocable.. so i guess time will answer this question.. i don't feel comfortable about this blog.. but wanted to put it out there and see how i feel about it.. maybe I will remove it soon.. it's scary to read..

m

10 things i love about my life..

wow - lists.. a new thing to my blog.. especially given that i have been wanting to write so much these past 2-3 days, but haven't time to!! but net-net, weirdly, I am in love with life right now.. and i wanted to share something positive about what's going in my day to day with my audience! so here i go..

1) my morning chai - this is the best time of day... i make tea and sit and watch my backyard and enjoy my morning.. i rush around all morning (being my hyperactive self) but calm down utterly for my tea..

2) afternoon yoga - sometimes, just sometimes, I do yoga at noons.. wow.. it's such a great experience.. i leave my office, mind and soul - and it feels wonderful..

3) the steam room - about 2-3 times a week, i use the steam room in my gym - and it's great (although it always always reminds of my hostel room in iit madras!) it's such a break from the weird chillness that always pervades the air in the bay area - even on nice summer evenings..

4) listening to oldie goldie on 1170 am - i love listening to these old hindi songs on my way to work.. it's great.. always pulls me back to my times in india.. and i can relate to almost every song!

5) going to the library - sometimes i come home early and when i do that i take a walk to my library.. my home is in a beautiful neighborhood.. flowers, parks and children with golden hair playing in the swings and climbing structures.. (i never cease to be amazed by the golden hair - on little kids, it looks like corn silk!) as I walk past these views under the setting sun, I feel so happy and lucky!

6) my music class - i am learning carnatic music.. and sometimes when we all sing together.. the resonance and synchrony touches me and it's beautiful (and noisy depending in your perspective, I think..)

7) grocery shopping - i love my weekly grocery shopping trips.. i am imagining all the stuff that I am going to cook and my culinary senses kick to life in a grocery shop.. love it!

8) sunday evening chaat - i have taken to having chaat on sunday evenings with my hubby.. and i love making my own pani puri.. and i am literally jumping in my seat by the team they serve it!

9) sense of nostalgia - i am a nostalgic person.. i have resigned to that fact now.. but the interesting thing is, i enjoy my nostalgia.. it's private, it's special and it gives me a reason to be utterly happy!

10) falling asleep with the book dropping from my hand - i love sleep - don't mistake me.. but i don't like going to sleep - if you can understand that.. so i have to read a book till it thumps to the floor and i am asleep - and i enjoy that transition.. that two seconds of consciousness that one day has ended, and when I wake up again, it will be a new day..

wow.. i am so happy that i wrote this.. so many beautiful things - i am so lucky.. and it again it reminds me of all the things that i should be doing for the others who don't get quite so lucky! looking back at my list, the only thing missing is human contact - so abundant in india, so difficult in the US.. i keep trying to work on it.. but its hard.. and i don't like the idea of committing my all too little discretionary time to anyone.. so let us see how it works out..

so now, you guys should try it too.. what are the things that you like about your life?

maalika

experience vs memory..

been reading up on happiness.. it's interesting.. listen to this one:

http://www.ted.com/talks/daniel_kahneman_the_riddle_of_experience_vs_memory.html

you can be happy with your life without being happy in life!! can you imagine that this is so different?

esp the part on spending time with others.. probably why i was so happy when my mom was here for 2 months..

maalika
fyi - he is a nobel laureate.. and is considered the founder of behavioral economics as a field.. his work is pretty interesting.. all over wikipedia for your reference..

moving on..

i think my idea for a new blog has come at a good time.. this weekend i had a long discussion with hubby about moving on.. we discussed what is not such a big revelation you know - that i am stuck in the past, i never really accepted my move to this country etc.. and what i didn't know very much was - how this has made me a not-so positive person.. and knowing that has scared me.. i have always been such a positive person and i really do think that what little i have achieved may not be attributed so much to genius, as it is to being optimistic and brimming with hope..

and somehow that hope has dimmed in the past few years - leading to an aura of negativity that rubs on others too.. god - it is so scary to even be thinking this.. but confronting it and accepting it will hopefully help me change for the better.. so i have promised myself to be more positive going forward and live in the now.. at present.. and just saying this to myself has made me so happy..

since this blog has borne the brunt of my negativity - it is only fair to delete this completely and not have it present to remind me of this dark period (and i am so good at forgetting that if I didn't have this blog, I will probably not recall any of it in the future!)

m

love story..

what can you say about a 25 year girl who died? that she was beautiful and brilliant.. that she loved mozart and bach.. the Beatles.. and me?

saw love story - just ended.. for the umpteenth time.. and loved every second of it..

m