the search is over..

there.. 4 years after starting my blog.. i changed what my blog stands for.. its no longer searching for the truth.. no.. not any more.. it's all in the little things.. thats life.. call it trivialization.. but i have decided to live my life everyday.. as if there is no tomorrow.. so, i am doing those things that i want to do most everyday.. that doesn't mean i have no goals or i have stopped trying.. it's just that i have volunteered to recognize that it is my life, my day, and i choose how best to spend it.. and that i will find happiness and truth.. in the little things that i do..

anyways, right now i am obsessing a song called lamha lamha in the hindi movie called gangster.. it is awesome.. one of the few hindi songs that manages to be sensual and erotic without being vulgar.. it's a good one to get our indian audience initiated into the adult mode.. where they can be open to sensuality without the awkwardness.. that characterizes the typical bollywood item scenes.. it always felt to me that directors and actors fought so hard to achieve this balance.. and almost always failed.. it was either too emotional, or too calculated to be natural, or too cheesy or just plain gross. I like this song, because i think the the director have handled the subject with an ease and maturity, that makes the song thoroughly enjoyable and in a certain mood if you are up for it :-D

hope you guys have fun watching it, if you haven't already!!

Gandhi's talisman

since the days i read it first on the preface of my CBSE textbooks, I took Gandhi's talisman to heart. He says that when things seem too much to bear, just go out and help the poor and needy and you will feel peace. I think it works, because we met people lower on the maslow's triangle and our own suffering seems indulgent and trivial. but sometimes, it doesn't hold.. when things seem so much that all you want to do is sleep, and let the eternal peace conquer you...

and sometimes my mind just seems to go on screaming unnamed words... feelings... and all i can bear to do is shut all my senses and hope that they will go away... appeal to god... not for even happiness or peace.. just silence...