well well... its long time now...
so many things have happened since...
married, quit my job, in the US and doing an MBA...
the eternal romantic that I am, i had mixed feelings...
married - well that ended the adventure in certain aspects of my life (which I did enjoy.. immensely while it lasted I may add)
quit my job - thats great, i can now jump on to a new experiment with my life.. this is good...
in the US - well, this is kind of a shock actually... as I will explain in a bit...
doing an MBA - this is it.. the last straw.. i did the one thing that I somehow did not conceive of myself doing at all... i imagined doing creative writing, baby sitting, day dreaming etc in a foreign land, but not doing an MBA...
anyways, here i am straddling too many new roles... and struggling a bit too... but i am sure looking back, this would be an interesting phase of my life..
now coming back to why counter factual thinking... i have OB (organizational behavior) exams tomorrow... and i read that what actually makes people happy or sad is the counter factual thinking... a silver medalist think he just missed a gold, a bronze medalist thinks that he managed to get it... you know, things that make you feel incomprehensible things...
i was struck by how meaningful it is... this "what if" question. the question that makes it difficult to accept realities and leading people to think wishful thoughts about what cannot be anymore... what if..
US has been an experience.. coming with my kinda baggage of strong patriotic thoughts (i never realized i was this way.. always thought that I will enjoy this adventure... but then, here you find me, missing india, missing my past)
and MBA is fabulous... not at all unromantic... with stuff like critical analytical thinking, global context of management, OB all bordering on social sciences... its just fabulous... am thoroughly immersing myself in the experience...
more than anything, i am feeling so carefree... no tension of what i have to do, what i should accomplish... its great to feel this way (probably for the first time for me that I am feeling this way, aimless... i always had so much to do, so much to prove....) to write long winded blogs the day before exams when everyone else is putting all nighters... its great...
but i am missing my friends and my culture... the indians also become so weird when they come to the US... maybe they adapt themselves.. i dunno... but i am feeling so odd here...
ha.. at least it feels good to write... a blog... spill my thoughts out, unload my mind by merely uploading my thoughts into the universe of internet.... great stuff...
wishing you well my friends... now that i have found my footing in this strange new place, i will write more now... if not to entertain others... to relieve myself...
