curiosity, expressions and all things human...

one of my friends was recently apping for MBA.. and there was one essay which just asked "what is the most important thing for you?" now this was a tough essay and my friend had to consult a lot of his friends on what they thought was most important for him.. in the end he settled on the safe answer "growth".

but this set off a series of questions in my mind.. and I couldn't rest till I decided for myself what was most important to me... I started with thinking what guided my actions and my day to day life.. was it relationships? money? growth? love? what... and a strange answer was lingering out there... it said expressions.. it was a weird answer.. nevertheless.. that was the reslt of my reflections.... as I was just toying with the word and trying to make some sense why my mind decided to spew this out, the different meaning of the word started registering... music, language, ambitions, IQ, EQ, XQ, curiosity, feelings and all things human would not have meant anything at all but for our ability (and keenness) to express them.. human beings are considered evolved because they could express things...

communication would be a merely utilitarian form of expressions... it would miss out on the art andthe emotions that's part of expressions... and we as humans are able to scale these expressions, measure them in different ways, store them if necessary and use technology to transmit them anywhere and any number of times... anyways... the impact of this would make sense to you if you considered yourself without your five senses... you would still have feelings, you would still have curiosity but you would not be able to express yourself... you could as well be a fish!!! because I am not at all sure that a fish doesn't have the same feelings and curiosity.... maybe its just not able to express... how am I to know?

anyways... let me continue what I started with... I have decided that to be able to express myself is most important to me and to not do that would mean death... maybe thats why I have a blog in the first place... and maybe thats why I love to sing despite my voice... and maybe thats what my tears burst forth and my laughter booms around me.. and thats why I was doing when I determined to get through JEE... to express the power of my will... maybe...

good.. now that I have told you whats in my mind, you can all go and figure out what is most important to you!!!

peace and amnesia...

hi guys...
yet another lovely sunday (like all sundays are..)
eating hot bujji's and luxuriating in the beautiful evening...

will go in sometime to buy a movie/book etc... been long since i went out..

actually its one of those moments when i am feel very peaceful... really rare.. these moments... but when they come I can't believe my own luck... probably its my plan to go to sikkim this december... my new boss.. who seems to be very stern... but very nice at the same time... whatever it is.. feeling good... seized with peace almost... after a long long time...

its so weird... as you keep growing.. your past keeps increasing in volume... and there is so much more you can think about now! there is never a dull moment with all these thoughts (wanted or unwanted) keep swirling in your head... i wonder bad it will get as I grow older... I have this funny habit of living largely in the present... thats why i forget most of my past... to the extent that I recently asked a doc if there was any pill for long term forgetfulness..

its like a wanton type of amnesia or something which plagues me forever... anyways..

enjoy all your sundays friends... they are far and few in between :-)