feelings and all that...

well, I nearly stopped writing after the criticism (destructive I am sure) I recieved for my previous post.. but then, this stubborn streak within me yearns for this mode of expression, where I can write on and on and come back to read it several months later only to be clueless as to why i wrote all this shit!!

anyways... my days have again gone from simple to not so simple... and i sit most of the letting my mind wander in the wilderness... the one i am really happy i did was read all the four books of a certain author - Nicholas Evans consecutively... man... it makes a difference.. I have always done this... the moment I decide I like an author, I go out and read everything he/she has written... so that i don't miss out while I am in the mood...

this particular author has such a beautiful way of writing... the characters he writes about are unforgettable... seemingly simple yet complex in their sensitivities... his description of nature... I almost feel like I have spent the last couple of weeks in Montana!!

a lot of people have accused me that i have a tendency to be sad, even when all was well... and i agree... i think that its when you are slightly sad that you enjoy the things around you in its several shades.... you know, otherwise its all black and white and I want to percieve the grays in between... and this authour has done just that... and maybe thats why a typical award winning novel always leaves one feeling melancholy and thoughtful rather than a light exhilerating feeling which you might think must constitute a good piece of writing...

why is it that what people mostly talk about are mundane while what people think are so complex... and thats what poetry and good books and music are all about... to discuss a good piece of writing is to explore the human nature... and what can be more important than to understand human nature... we study history, literature and social science to understand human behaviour... even economics has its roots in understanding motivations...

i have seen that you call a person close or a friend, when you can share with them things beyond the mundane... like your feelings... not opinions.. but feelings... you might ask of what practical importance are feelings?? in this busy world, to spend time on feeling things has almost become a luxury of sorts... when most of our time is spent on surviving.. where is the time or enthu to 'feel'?? thats probably why I feel rich when I write on my blog... it makes me feel that i have the time and enthu to feel things and actually pen them for all the world to share with!!!

okay guys... hope you all had a great diwali unlike the one I had... spent it suffering from high fever and what not... have fun...

ami kolkata ashchi...

well.. its been long.. the whole transition from a wandering nomad to a well settled uptown girl... nothing particularly interesting to write about actually... except work and of course kolkata... we will take up kolkata first..

kolkata (cal in short.. the usual way I have always known it as) and its people are all about contradictions... its a charming and an equally irritating place... while the utter poverty irritates you.. the fact that these poor people would eat mishti dhoi instead of the usual dhal chaval with the few coins they manage to earn charms you.. you would think the people are laidback till you hear the almost daily phenomenon of "cholben cholben" -- small groups going on strike for something or the other.. (like their company not serving them kukure at tea time?!?)

another thing that has me totally befuddled me has been the way these people celebrate their pujas... my god.. you would think that all the gods in the world have rushed to reside in their idols for those ten days of puja... the place goes mad... and i am not even sure with what.. is it religious fervour, socialising spree, some spurt of creativity that gets expressed through the dressing up of the idols/themselves... god knows... but the reason behind the thousands doing their mid-night jaunts amidst all the rush in the name of Pandal hopping is beyond me...

let me come to work now... I am now a manufacturing manager (on probation.. but I will let that be) and its quite cool... lots of responsibilities... lots of liabilities... lots of fire fighting.. lots of fun.. for once I don't feel like I am wasting time... wasting all the resources of mother earth by my sheer useless presence... I know why I am here on earth... I am born to make tea for all the tea drinkers of the world (oh yes, we export too!)... which is as good as any other purpose I suppose... anyways.. lets just say that I am happy making tea (leaf, dust, plain, flavoured, you name it... ) for the time being.. now that makes me quite a busy person... and hence this post after a long long time (just kidding yaar...)

anyways guys.. will stop now..
before I lose the few fans that my blog has...
enjoy.. and wotch (oops.. sorry.. bong inflections seem to be to have caught me already!!) for tea made in cal ;-)