yes.. its been long... I feel divorced from the blog world... but there is a charm about blogging that makes you wanna come back... something like nostalgia... so, after much dilly dallying, here I am back after all...
am inPune now.. getting used to a dangerously indulging lifestyle.. not to say I am not enjoying it immensely.. though the loneliness gets to me sometimes... and I find that the fact that I am living alone seems to have suddenly changed my priorities... like i always used to like reading thought provoking and challenging stuff... now, I am scared to dwelve into such books... have actually resorted to harry potter and malgudi days... I daresay that I make every effort not to let dark thoughts weigh even heavier on my already heavy mood...
watching movies, talking to friends on phone, working, eating, sleeping... that about sums up my daily activities... I cannot say I like it... I am not even sure I can get used to it... somehow, I did not think my life will come to this.. was always thinking that something big is awaiting me... you know, the-I-was-brought-into-this-world-for-a-special-reason feeling... but as of now, this is what I am doing... nothing consequential... nothing that the world cannot do without... its almost like some grand disillusionment...
and I think its all because of a lack of competitive feeling (for which I am famous among friends)... I seem to have lost it... don't care anymore about performance, future etc... I can't believe myself... why am I so indifferent?? what should I do to bring my usual spirit back?? looks to me like I am just taking a break... not sure whether its well deserved or not...
but all said and done, Pune is a fab place... the area where I am staying is simply awesome... calm ambience, the misty air, tiny tea shops with dull yellow lights speckled across the streets, relaxed atmosphere... even the people seem to be happier... instead of being intimidating like bombay, its merely intimate... and I am falling fast in love with it... the osho commune thats nearby and all the sadhu type foreigners it attracts adds its own mystic effect... making it the perfect place for a lovely evening walk...
if only I had company.......
