thanks for all the tips ppl... i have come out of it... not bored anymore... i just realised something that a few of you who are as bored as I was can maybe use... it goes like this. We live at different levels simultaneously... the physical and the metaphysical... the mundane and the abstract... in the inner world of the self and the outer obvious world...

the answer to all kind of abnormal behaviour is excess indulgance in one of this. a balanced life seems to need equal measure of input from both these spheres of existance... greed of materialistic pleasures corrodes the inner self, till you reach a point where you have forgotten what you are living in this earth for... while a quest for inner glory makes you slack on the physical plane till you loose your edge and worth and again end up disoriented...

hence, a healthy combination of effort, but intellectual and physical is what returns lost sanity. so, the solution to boredom in simple words is "eight hours of value addition, in terms of reading, working anything to keep your mind occupied and maintain your competence... and then leisure.. for playing or meditating or finding meaning to existance or whatever..."

I feel enlightened!!

courtesy: german studies

eight semester blues....

i was awaiting the eight semester with an impatience i could scarcely conceal from the day I came to iit... prime of youth, totally jobless, loads of equally jobless friends, cash in hand (parents sympathetic enough to be generous to me in this final sem), all the time in the world... YES, I was really looking forward to this sem... started dreaming about it in the third year... it become a yearning in the seventh semester... (my longing to 'freak out' runs truly deep ;-) )

neways, coming back to the present... now that i live in my dreams (figuratively speaking) i realise that 'noooo.... its not supposed to be this way... ' all I am feeling is a certain listlessness... heaviness... an inertia that seems to be pulling me backwards... curbing my enthusiasm to do things... stealing all my energy... leaving me with nothing but an air of melancholy which I am not able to shake off...

yes, I sleep more than required... read newspapers and mags for most of the day...I even travelled around a bit... i am relaxed... which is one thing I cherish... but the euphoria.. the joy of living a happy, truly unconstrained life seems to have evaporated in thin air...

Wondering what's missing... will get back when I figure it out... till then, I am gonne be sunk in this abyss of nothingness...
bye