country life...

been so long since I blogged!! am in trichy now... living a country life... that which comprises solely of my role as a daughter and sister (a responsible, elder one at that... )



its so weird here.. paying current bills, settling milk account, going to "Fair-price" shops, putting JEE fundaes to my sister, feeding 2 kittens, helping mom in the kitchen...



I feel like one fine day I have become another person, assumed another personality... where all my books and grades don't matter.... where I get scolded if I argue with my sister... though this change was first very confusing and even depressing to me.... now I am enjoying the change... in the sense that I feel so different, not at all the maalika I am... but some ancient person who I used to know... with different issues, different worries...



I feel like a blur...

grappling for a grip...

hope this free time does me good.. though god knows, I am not relaxing.... just unable to do so... to unload the thoughts that run incessantly in my head....



Hoping for a miracle... selective amnesia... so that I can erase all the unwanted memories and keep only the cherished ones... but probably, its all these disturbing thoughts that make me, ME...



Let's see...

In the meanwhile..

Happy new year to everyone out there... hope the next year is the better than all the previous years :-)

Love demystified...

I read this really funny article (the article was serious enough... i found the content amazingly funny..) about a woman whose career consisted of demystifying love..



she classifies them into lust, infatuation and attachment...



Lust is dangerous, for it tends to develop emotional attachment and if you lust the wrong person, you may end up being attached to the wrong person.. which is totally wrong.



Infatuation is dangerous, for it keeps you on a permanent high and makes you obsessive about the person you are infatuated with... and kills your peace for good...



Attachment is what human beings want ultimately and this has to bloom slowly in a relationship...



Anyway the woman herself is still searching for true love it seems... no wonder... if she starts classifying what she feels and analysing them... phew!



madam, we don't want any 'need analysis' and 'in-depth probing' of such vastly complex issues,

just some courage to take risks, faith to believe in our decisions and endurance to make it work will do...

in mourning...

today my cousin died... 15 year old boy, run over by a bus... wheels over his head...

Gruesome.. unbelievable... horrifying...



death is so sudden.. so instant.. no time to regret, no time to mend the past... no time to do all the things you wanted to do...



I remember our sister (a catholic nun in my school, which was a christian institution) said once "Live everyday like its your last day on this earth"



That way you won't fight with anyone... won't carry grudge... coz you don't have the time for it.. life is much to short and much too sweet... and you won't procrastinate all the nice things you want to for tomorrow, coz there may be no tomorrow... and you will cringe from antogonizing others... you don't want people to remember you with bitterness after your death....



I think its a good policy... after all who wants enemies? who wants bitterness?

friends, this may be the last day of your stay here...

run now and do your thing!!