from the mallu land...

First Love



There was once lived a female sparrow in the forests of Kerala, who was terribly in love with a certain male sparrow in the vicinity. She flew by his nest several times just to steal a look at him. But never did she find the courage to confess her feelings. And one day, she found him making love to another female.... she flew back blindly to her nest and cried and cried... it was too late....



One she will get over him....

One day she will find her own mate... her twin soul...

But the sweetness of her first love will always remain...

a tender memory in her heart...

for it had taught her what love was....

Love...

It blooms with mutual admiration and respect...

It thrives on sharing and compromising...

It mellows to warmth and companionship...

It dies only with death...





this phenomenon called 'love'



Love is stabilizing... like an anchor...

It disturbs only when its not mutual...

going haywire like a boat without sails...



Hmmm.....

Be positive...

perceptions matter... perceptions are everything... so a positive attitude is vital for a healthy state of mind.. So much depends just on how you look at things... anything can be ugly or beautiful.. just by changing your viewpoint.



Thats why a positive attitude is important... have the look and feel of a winner about you... and lo, you really become a winner... Coz to be at the top, you should start feeling like a topper... unless you don't think you deserve to be at the top, how can you hope to be at the top?



And use positive words only and think postive thoughts only. Instead of concentrating on the futility of existence divert your attentions to the fruits of your actions. Do good. Serve others. coz, what goes around, comes around, a million times over. One kind deed, one selfless act will come back to you in the form of a fulfilled dream...



So, don't let pessimism conquer you, its worth the effort to be positive and active and be a go-getter than to lose yourself in apparent hopelessness of everything and waste away...



The power of one is immense. Use it. Its in you to change this world single handedly... perform miracles, plainly by believing that you can very well change the world and perform miracles. Don't cower looking at the innumerous ready to laugh at you... just go and do it. for, you can.



There is no I will try... its either I do or I don't.. so choose to do and do it. Just remember, you can, do anything.



"you will get anything you want, if you want it badly enough" there is nothing impossible on this earth. the power is there... the attitude to use it, is not. So, you see, its only a question of attitude.



Be positive. Always.

alone...

I have been trying real hard to remove this tone of pessimism from my blogs... I don't feel that way most of the time.... but it seems like I want to write my post only when I am feeling as sad and blue... so here goes yet another sad post... to all of you who are in a cheerful mood, don't bother to read further and spoil you light mood...



Everyone is fundamentally alone on this earth... everything is inside us... The world outside is immaterial, as we live in our mind alone.. so, why does this mind get hurt at another's word or actions? Why do we expect? if this expectation is only a feeling, why is the control of such a feeling so very hard to master? If the aim of life is to live freely... why are we forced to control our feelings? chain our impulses?



I want to be happy always... free from expectations from those around me... Just focus on what I have to do... and do it cheerfully... without second thoughts... but one friend hurts me, and I go all low... one wrong word from someone I care for, and I get dejected and sad and don't want to live anymore... I forget my purpose, lose my focus and get lost into some kind of eternal haziness... till things get sorted out... why is my happiness so dependent on somebody else? why do I care so much? How does it matter? One day, I am gonna die, alone... so why do these people matter?

Bring me to life....

"Save me from the nothing I've become..."



A song by Evanescence... or rather, a woman's cry..

man, it touches a chord in me,

somewhere deep.. so amazing, so visceral, so raw...

the tone of the song and the words...



am still in her potent spell..

a helpless victim...

why?

you enter this world crying...

its probably stage-fear...



yes... this is a pretentious life...

you are in a state of permanent hypnosis...

to believe that you can make any difference...



in the end its all ashes...

always...



where are you running all the time, by the way?

don't you know that 'nothing matters??'

you seem to have forgotten that



you are just this: ashes...



so why do you choose to ignore this glaring fact?

and live as if it makes any difference to you or anyone?

is it just the



fear of turning to ashes???

I WANT ESCAPE

I suppose this deliberate plea needs no elaboration....

The Godfather

its famous for many reasons... this novel by Mario Puzo about the underworld dons... I don't know all the reasons, but there is one thing I really like in this novel... the way the author stays away from describing Micheal's state of mind when his wife dies.. the one he loved so dearly... he refuses to trivialize his tragedy by elaborating on it... and this gives us a deep sense of his irretrievable loss and we are overcome with empathy for Michael...



btw, its an amazing read...